“Just jump in a taxi cab, pack a bag and get away fast” The song by Kindred describes exactly what I want to do at times, more often than not. Life is supposed to be one big adventure according to the movie, “UP”. Not that I took the movie literally, but it has a nice ring to it. Except that giant bird, Kevin and the crazy dogs. It’s about pushing past your fears and taking that big step to make your life worthwhile. At least that’s what I took from it.
You see, I have this funny idea that I can be fulfilled in my career, relationship, and my spiritual life. Let me be clear as T.I. Would say, that I’ve found that fulfillment in my relationship, but now I need that with my career. Along my rocky, exciting, loving, and adventurous journey, called life I have learned that while things may seem to be going smoothly, that’s not always the case. At the age of 30, I began to reflect deeply on the past 10 years. There are some things I’m proud of, and some things I would have chosen to do differently. Oh Well, those times have past, and now I must move forward and make the next 10 years regret free. I don’t want to reach 40 and feel that I haven’t gotten much further with my adventure than I was 10 years ago. This is not a new thought, but a true decision and commitment to myself. I must cut those branches that are not helping me to grow. Fear is one of those branches that I have to cut off. What am I afraid of? Is it my own destined success? Is it that I may fail? Or is it simply a dazed mental state that I have lived in for some time. Whatever it was, It now ceases to be. I must go fearlessly into the unknown and take the “Road less traveled by, and that will make all the difference”.(Robert Frost)
When life gets you down and you want to go far away from here, maybe you should get away and push towards that dream or goal which will fulfill your life in so many ways. Unhappiness is not an option. Maybe you won’t jump into a taxi cab litterally, but you must jump at the opportunity to pursue your dreams.
“Trying to simultaneously balance my dreams and needs is tough, and requires an ongoing assessment of who I am, what I believe, value, and desire” (Derrick Bell).
It is okay and admirable to admit that you’re not sure what you want do do in life to bring meaning, because you may not know who you want to be. Courage to admit your self doubts is a big step to starting a positive, productive, and self fulfilling life. “Just jump in a taxi cab,pack a bag and get away faaasst! Far away from here, far away from here….”(Kindred)