Feeling some kinda way!

February 23, 2011

Every now and then I have a dream that my mom’s cooking pancakes in the kitchen and it’s so real to me in the dream that I wake up and can almost smell them in the air.

But there are no pancakes and no mom either. Damn this dream that haunts me, leaving me feeling so empty and angry and, and, lonely, and wanting.

My only reason for writing this is because writing this helps me feel free. Because sometimes people just don’t get me and this is my temporary therapy.


“Life is a Contract”

October 22, 2010

I just came up with this after attending
My business class tonight. The topic was about business contracts and agreements and it Inspired me to write this. Hope you enjoy!

Life is a contract. Go ahead grab a pen. Sign on the dotted line and let your life begin.

You sign for houses, cars, and phones. You sign for the one to whom your heart belongs. You sign for jobs, and you probably sign for clothes. Try signing for something that will feed your soul.

Yes life goes on and so do we. Life is a contract can’t you see. So I’ll keep signing and living and shining until my contract ends.

Why not live happy, why not live free. I’ll live for Jesus, because he died for me.

Snap your fingers with me ya’ll. Snap your fingers I say! Lol.

Love, live, life!

October 18, 2010

I speak volumes! Follow me now: 

It’s ok to smile. It actually feels good!

Say what you mean and mean what you say! 

Be slick and get caught quick!

If  life gives you lemons, give them back, bc you deserve better. You should get apples or something sweet. lol!

Figure out what you Love to do and follow that dream. I know I am. Still trying to figure it out, but I’m almost there.

Motivation!  More to come…

Going through the motions of life….

May 29, 2010

Do you ever feel like you’re going through the motions of life? Well I do. The realities of life can be a cruel eye opening mother sucker. I’m saying this because I want a new car and it’s not happening as easily as I’d like it to. Just give me the flipping car. I deserve good things to happen to me. Don’t I? Shouldn’t I be happy sometimes.

Yes, I am having a bit of a pity party, because I feel as though I have to accept the f’d up parts of life, and I have to fight so hard for those things I want and need. I don’t ask for much. Ok, I’m done.

And scene…

The way he makes you feel!

May 16, 2010

I was speaking to an individual on the topic of Love and this is what they told me…

“Love is a strong emotion, but the thing that keeps that emotion from dying out is whether that person keeps your interest, and how they make you feel when you’re around them”.
This makes sense to me!

Feel free to respond with your thoughts on this statement.

“Far Away from here”

April 11, 2010

“Just jump in a taxi cab, pack a bag and get away fast” The song by Kindred describes exactly what I want to do at times, more often than not. Life is supposed to be one big adventure according to the movie, “UP”. Not that I took the movie literally, but it has a nice ring to it. Except that giant bird, Kevin and the crazy dogs. It’s about pushing past your fears and taking that big step to make your life worthwhile. At least that’s what I took from it.

You see, I have this funny idea that I can be fulfilled in my career, relationship, and my spiritual life. Let me be clear as T.I. Would say, that I’ve found that fulfillment in my relationship, but now I need that with my career. Along my rocky, exciting, loving, and adventurous journey, called life I have learned that while things may seem to be going smoothly, that’s not always the case. At the age of 30, I began to reflect deeply on the past 10 years. There are some things I’m proud of, and some things I would have chosen to do differently. Oh Well, those times have past, and now I must move forward and make the next 10 years regret free. I don’t want to reach 40 and feel that I haven’t gotten much further with my adventure than I was 10 years ago. This is not a new thought, but a true decision and commitment to myself. I must cut those branches that are not helping me to grow. Fear is one of those branches that I have to cut off. What am I afraid of? Is it my own destined success? Is it that I may fail? Or is it simply a dazed mental state that I have lived in for some time. Whatever it was, It now ceases to be. I must go fearlessly into the unknown and take the “Road less traveled by, and that will make all the difference”.(Robert Frost)

When life gets you down and you want to go far away from here, maybe you should get away and push towards that dream or goal which will fulfill your life in so many ways. Unhappiness is not an option. Maybe you won’t jump into a taxi cab litterally, but you must jump at the opportunity to pursue your dreams.

“Trying to simultaneously balance my dreams and needs is tough, and requires an ongoing assessment of who I am, what I believe, value, and desire” (Derrick Bell).

It is okay and admirable to admit that you’re not sure what you want do do in life to bring meaning, because you may not know who you want to be. Courage to admit your self doubts is a big step to starting a positive, productive, and self fulfilling life. “Just jump in a taxi cab,pack a bag and get away faaasst! Far away from here, far away from here….”(Kindred)